I was in that downward spiral of no motivation. I was (and maybe still am) caught up in the circle of house is a mess ->I am discouraged so I eat->I overeat I am out of shape and lazy->I am out of shape and lazy I lay around and watch TV or waste time on the computer-> I watch TV and play on the computer I snack-> I snack and feel gross-> I spend money I don't have in shopping therapy->My finances suck I eat or get discouraged and don't want to do anything->housework doesn't get done-> I am overwhelmed by everything. Then I feel like I am so far behind why bother with anything, kind of like the dieter that has a bad day, meal or even a single indulgence and decides to throw in the towel.
So that's what I have been up to for the last few weeks. On the plus side, I do schedule time for socialization and activities with family and friends so I do enjoy that, but that takes a lot of time too. I have always had a problem with time organization. I am at the point where I don't even want to schedule anything on my days off, because I feel like that are over so quick and I got nothing done. Hopefully getting this train back on the track.